Spend the evening at the bookstore. This is fast becoming an almost nightly ritual but i can't seem to break it. Their Christian/Religious section is AMAZING and i can't soak in enough. I take short notes and questions on my phone and use them for later research and torture for Paul who is becoming my Bible teacher along with his pastorly duties. The Bible is unbelievably fascinating and i want to learn everything. And not just the Bible, i have also been brushing up on cults and other religions and although they didn't win my heart like Christ they are interesting to study. How else are we ever to share our beliefs if we don't even make an effort to learn about others? No wonder we come across as selfish and self-centered to non-believers. Anyway just wanted to share this. I have also been addicted to writing lately. More than usual. I guess it is because i had more free time since Jordan and i are no longer a couple. It is still weird to even write that. It feels so surreal to me. Like a bad aftertaste. It is hard to accept i guess because my feelings haven't changed a bit, but regardless my feelings are unimportant at the moment. I want his to be the only ones that matter. Because if mine are valid as I believe then mine truly don't matter right now. His concerns and need for space is the only thing that matters. I am learning the harder side of Agape or 1 Corinthians love. Love that remains unconditional regardless of whether it is returned. This i think is the truest form of love because it must become completely unselfish. Interesting thoughts.