So much to think about. I am sure of him. And because of that sureness i am going to let that part of my life be. I am going to pray for him everyday. I am going to Agape love him. I am going to be supportive and encouraging and loving. I am going to learn to be the best friend in the world to him. And that is all. There is a reason we are not in together right now and i am far from understanding that reason or liking it, but it is there nonetheless and i will not waste this time in anger and bitterness. God has a plan for me. Now that i have time and zero distractions i need to be seeking what that is. And maybe that means coming home from work everyday and immediently falling on my face and begging him to show me his plans for me. Maybe that means reading His love letter to me cover to cover until i have it memorized and hidden in my heart. Maybe that means when the day turns out bad or i am low on strength instead of crying myself to sleep i fall asleep praising him for being counted worthy of another day. I have no idea what is in the future. But this i know: He is already there ahead of me, working things out, and He is also here with me right now, preparing me for what is ahead. With all of this trouble and hurt and pain it must be something great coming! I can't wait!