Color Me Stationary.

I haven't made this public yet and things are always open to change, but I am almost positive I will be staying here a little longer. I will add details later but to keep it short, there is much ministry to be done here and the military now has a very special place in my heart.

Color Me At Home.

It is funny. I haven't been homesick for here in a while, but now after being back after a couple months I was surprised by the twinge of longing I felt to be back here. Daddy, speak and tell me where to go. My feet won't go a step without your word.

Color Me Adventurous.

My brother asked me today what I planned on doing in a couple months when he leaves and I realized how okay I am with that. In fact, I am very okay with it. God could send me anywhere or keep me right here. Life is so exciting living in the unknown. Even just knowing that I have no idea where I will be in the next couple months is so thrilling. Am I nervous? Yeah. Am I completely dependant on God's response to my questions? Absolutely. Am I in the dark about it all? You have no idea. This is living on the edge...of Eternity.

Color Me Satisfied.

I had such a heavy heart last night. So, I am determined I am not going home until I get this worked out. I go to Waffle House, which is my chill place and I am reading, drinking coffee, and listening to music. I sit there writing little notes on my iPod about how I am feeling and such and feeling sadder by the minute. It was strange because everyone feels sad sometimes but this sadness was heavy and I couldn't really place why I felt sad. And finally, as I am feeling overwhelmed, I stop and ask God "This is too heavy. Will you carry this too?" To which He replies, "If you unclench your fist and lay it down." I was a bit stunned to say the least. I had been so busy asking God to take it away that I had no idea I was grasping it like the last flotation device in an open sea. And I wonder how often we probably do that. God can't carry what you won't lay down or let go of. I felt much lighter after we talked.