Color Me Satisfied.

I had such a heavy heart last night. So, I am determined I am not going home until I get this worked out. I go to Waffle House, which is my chill place and I am reading, drinking coffee, and listening to music. I sit there writing little notes on my iPod about how I am feeling and such and feeling sadder by the minute. It was strange because everyone feels sad sometimes but this sadness was heavy and I couldn't really place why I felt sad. And finally, as I am feeling overwhelmed, I stop and ask God "This is too heavy. Will you carry this too?" To which He replies, "If you unclench your fist and lay it down." I was a bit stunned to say the least. I had been so busy asking God to take it away that I had no idea I was grasping it like the last flotation device in an open sea. And I wonder how often we probably do that. God can't carry what you won't lay down or let go of. I felt much lighter after we talked.