So, i miss him. I am okay with things more now. I still wish we were together. All of this was such a shock to me. But i have complete comfort in the fact that it is not a shock to you God. And i have even more comfort in the knowledge that you already know how all of this is going to turn out. So, i am trusting you. You know my desires Lord. You know how deeply i love him. I only pray that you grow that love for him if he the one you have chosen for me. No matter how long he remains unsure or how little that love is returned. And if i am wrong and he is not for me i pray that you remove all feelings for him except the growing love of friendship. Please, God answer my prayer by confirming these things for me so that i can obey you. I don't want to hold on to someone that is not mine, neither do i want to let go of someone that you have chosen for me. I love you Lord and i am trusting you completely even in this time of blindness where i have absolutely no idea where you want me to be, who to be with, or what to be doing. Reveal yourself to us both Lord confirming your plans for us by your word, through prayer and through others Lord.