Oh Daddy, I miss him so much. I long so much to be married. To be his wife. To take care of him and work side by side with him. It has been on my mind more and more lately which only confuses me more since we aren't together right now. He seems to content being like this. Why is he content but my soul is troubled? I want to be content too Daddy. I want to be able to act normal around him and treat him nicely. I want to be his best friend and not feel weird around him. It seems so easy for him. Why is it so hard for me? I am trying so hard to let it go. To trust you. To stay out of the way of your plans. Please Daddy overwhelm my heart with Agape love for him. Please Daddy make me content in this circumstance. I want to do anything to please you. Being sad can't please you. I need you more than yesterday Daddy even though yesterday i needed you more than i have ever before, today i need you more than that. Please, please, Daddy give me more strenth. Help me to worship you even through this. Especially through this.