Ongoing.

Conversations between us lately.

Me: "I"m Done! This isn't fair and my faith is so small in this, it is close to becoming endangered."
Him: "You are going to need a lot more faith in this later so you better start keeping the faith now."

Me: "Why do i have to be the unselfish one?"
Him: "Because this is the first time in your life that you ever have been."


Me: "Why do i always get the short end of the stick?"
Him: "I got the stick with the nails in it."

Me: "Oh..."
Him: "Callie, why won't you just trust me?"

I have no reply. Why don't I? Why can't i trust my heart, emotions, and future to the One who spoke them into being before i was even considered? Why can't I trust the one who can see my beginning and end and holds it in His hand? Why is my faith becoming so small and my doubt growing more and more each day? I have no reply. I am guilty once again. At His feet. I am guilty.