I went swimming with Traci and the kids today. It was so neat to be apart of today with them. We were teaching Toby how to swim and he would freak out when water touched his face or Traci or i tired to let him float(he was wearing this awesome padded swim suit that helped him stay afloat. He would cling to us while we tried to show him that he could trust us that he wouldn't drown. And once he got the hang out it it was awesome. He giggled and splashed and paddled around and around. My heart melted just watching his face light up and when he would get afraid and grab my hand in a death grip i fell in love with him. It made me look forward to having kids. I never thought about things like teaching them how to swim. It was hard work but so rewarding. I know i said i didn't want kids and didn't want to be pregnant but after spending so much time with Traci and her family and working with so many pregant girls at work my perspective and mind has changed. I definitely want to wait a long time, but i also very much want a family.