Last night was hard. It is so hard to say no to someone that you would give anything to say yes to. I thought time would make things easier, but i only get lonlier and sadder. I miss so much being together. If this is best for us now how could I try to force something that would only hurt us? That wouldn't be shpwing love. I can't do that. Love is proven during the toughest times, the times when the least Love is being shown back. It is during this time that Love grows. The future is looking less and less clear. I have no idea where i am supposed to be. I only know i wish you were by my side. It is a good thing God is, i am pretty sure i would have collasped by now if He weren't.